where do i begin

anyone who knows me would probably sigh here. then roll their eyes, and try to find a way to get away from me. but it's ok, im not going to write much down. I'm certainly not going to recount the harrowing details of the past few months, for which i have left a very barren journal- intentionally.
suffice to say, it's been temultuous, maybe i will tell the story later, but i doubt it.
anyway,
my life is completely different than last time i wrote.
I went to rome,
i came back,
almost everything i thought i knew was wrong,
i adjusted,
things changed again.
i'm sick of everything now, i dont think i want to talk to anyone. the person who i thought was really going to be there has basically told me to leave him alone. He said "maybe you've changed."
"maybe..." i thought to myself sarcastically.... Of course I've changed. Thank god i've changed. I've cut out a very large and dangerous part of my life. I've really changed for the better and live a happier more healthy life now. But, as a result, I'm adjusting to every little thing. I have to really think out little things because I need to react to situations differently than I used to, deal with things differently, its really hard to explain. I feel really alone, and it's been a while. I guess I fucked that whole new thing up. Though not surprising, its really a shame, because I was otherwise so happy around him, which is unusual to begin with.
Anyway, back to whatever I was talking about:
I barely said anything to him. I agree with what he said, but I just feel hurt anyway. So I just went home and went to bed. Actually, I passed out on the bottom bed. Then woke up an hour or so later, really confused by my surroundings, the loud music, and the random screams of the people outside on the warm night.

I'm starting to feel like I'm getting nowhere with this, so I'm just going to stop. Rarely do I ever write anything that so personally concerns me. I usually just makes jokes and post pictures, so sorry you suffered through that. I'mdone.withitall.forgood.

<3 Sherye