i'd like to send a special thank you to the kid who just made me laugh.

Well, this morning is wonderful. I dont know what I did to deserve this. I'll elaborate on that later if Im feeling particularly sadistic.
For now, I'll finish up what I was saying yesterday. I've met some new kids lately. One guy that is particularly cool. I'm actually not going to say much about him, that is one lesson I've learned. How dissapointing, right? Thats what i promised. Anyway, if you've been within 20 feet of me in the last week, you know who I'm talking about. ok fine heres a hint: Brent says "hes in."
So, I've got to go to italian lab now, because...I'm cool...?

I will finish this in a few hours, and i swear there is an interesting point to this one...ha. the last was tying up loose ends and answering that question once and for all. this one is monumentous!


jesus, i gotta go.

the bear sherbear.


:::sigh:::
ok its several hours later. despues de clase. i also got my eyebrows done. So back to what I was saying. I'm in a good mood. I have been for the past week weeks, since school started. But not a psychotically good mood, just normal human happy. It's nice, and it's the first time since I can remember. but i do feel like i'm living in a constant state of confusion. I forget EVERYTHING. i can't do something for more than ten minutes before i srtat forgetting what i'm doing, why i'm doing it, or where i am. I have no clue whats wrong with my brain, but its got some major short circuit action going on. Thats HOT. i know. Hellooooo date rape.
Anyway, theres this new boy i like. Stop, check for evil, cross the street. He's awesome, in a word. But i shouldnt write anymore about it. Partly because he'll read this and be like "double you tee eff.." And partly because I dont feel like writing down what my insane brain thinks because, i've been noticing more and more, i dont know common dating etiquette. Reading what i'm thinking at any moment is bound to be painful. I have no clue how things are supposed to be, what to expect from people, etc. I'm not awkward, but I think I may be demanding. Ok, i am demanding. and when i limit myself and try to bottle of what i'm thinking it eventually comes out in bursts anyway, so what people see is me being moody, or quiet or weird. I dont know, its hard to explain. Good thing i'm not going to edit this- i know its hard to follow. I guess I just dont remember how to develop feelings for people in a healthy way. But i can say I'm going out of my way not to get attached to anyone right now. I used to be so good about that, I never got attached to people. Maybe i can just go back to that. I mean, either way its not as if i'm intensely looking for anyone for anything. Thats a hard statement to make with myspace open in another window. Ha.


fuck. The new faint album blows. I hate the word "sweet" used as slang.
so I'm taking some bullshit classes at HCC during my semester off. Yeah it doesn't make sense. Its for insurance purposes; i feel like a lot of things are for insurance purposes. Like why I dont drive at 155 mph. I'm taking italian and acting and other random ass things. Italian is the fourth language I've studied in six months. A cookie if you can guess all four. I love cookies.

me: hey itunes, shuffle!
itunes: no, i'm just going to play 398374 michael buble songs.
me: oh, ok thanks.

-the bear